Shining Through

I had a patient who came in yesterday and she complimented me on how pretty I looked and about my hair. She started asking me all these random questions like: Do you have a new boyfriend? No ma’am I wouldn’t really consider him new. I didn’t even 1st think to ask are you married? No ma’am I am not married. Are you getting ready to get married? No ma’am not at the moment. Well there has been something different about you lately. You’ve just been looking so pretty and very beautiful lately. I said did I not before? I’m thinking in my head I have on scrubs and my hair is in a pony tail. She said no I didn’t mean it that way. It’s just something about you. We just laughed and when she walked off my co-worker looked at me like what was that all about. Me with my hands in the air I DO NOT KNOW. I didn’t even feel that bubbly yesterday. I was tired, feeling some kinda way. By the end of the day that same patient had checked out and was inquiring again about me to another co-worker. You would have thought she was trying to find out this big secret that I was keeping. I have had several people say different things about noticing a difference and this glow about me. If they only knew what I was really feeling and am experiencing behind this smile. There are times I am struggling, battling, trying to keep my self from crying or having a nervous break down, I don’t feel like I have it all together or even feel like being strong. The only thing I can sum up is the fact that I am happy, free and at peace and in spite of what I might be experiencing and what’s inside me supersedes it all. “Greater is He that is in me than He that is in the world” 1 John 4:4 #CLEANTHISHOUSE

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