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Below The Surface

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“Nothing changes if nothing changes”

As I was vacuuming the steps this morning, I noticed the railings.  It reminded me that I needed to repaint them.  Something said, “why not just take a damp cloth and wipe them off”.  I thought to myself why not.  As I begin to wipe them off, I was so disgusted at how much dirt was on the railings.  It was not even the fact that I needed to touch it up with paint but that it needed to be cleaned off. My youngest daughter was coming down the steps and I said do you see how clean this is?  She said, “was all of that dirt?”  I replied, “yes.  We were both surprised and disgusted. So, we know we need to clean them off more often.

I went back to finish cleaning the steps and as I was cleaning in the crease of the steps the Lord started dealing with me about how we are sometimes ok with just dealing with the surface things in our life. Dealing with the surface does not require much work nor does it allow us to walk in total freedom. We appear to look like we have it all together and we are a mess, we appear to be ok and when we are not, we appear to be happy and we are miserable or we appear to be well and we are really sick. We do not want anyone to know that we are silently suffering, and it is killing us.

“What is being manifested on the surface is the overflow of what has existed underneath”

The things that normally surface to the top are the things that have already being existing from within.  Currently we are in a pandemic and the death of yet another black man that has now started a Revolution is finally causing us to deal with what has always been. Racism at its best and a systemic system that needs to be broken. Although this did not begin with George Floyd, it has lit a fire to start the process of some necessary changes as well as healing. Our nation has appeared to be well and we have been sick for a long time. It is now starting to rear its ugly head.

For things to progress and change we can no longer just deal with the surface. What is on the surface is not the real issue and it will only bring temporary healing. We must dig deep and pull it up from the root. The system they created is working the way it is supposed to. Until a system that was never created for us changes and we get rid of the people who continue to work that same system, we will continue this same fight.

“Keep thy heart with all dilligience; for out of it are the issues of life” Proverbs 4:23

Before there can be a true change in a nation there also has to be a change within us.  This is also shinning a light on where we are individually and our need for change. The true work begins within. Then we can be more effective to the change in our homes, our community, and our nation.

My prayer is that you would allow God to deal with the root of those things that keep surfacing to the top, so that you can walk in total freedom and victory. That you would have the motivation and strength to do the work needed so that you can be free.

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When Your In One Place But Your Heart Is Some Where Else

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My Life, My Love, My All by Kirk Franklin

Where your treasure is therefore your heart is also Matt 6:21
For sometime now I feel like I have been in this struggle of where I belong since the closing of my former church home. I have been in this place of searching or more like transition for what I felt was “home” For 37 years of my life I was in 1 place. Never went from church to church, because I was always taught to be committed where you are. Then God decided to disrupt my life in every way manageable with what felt like a stripping away, cutting back, pruning or surgery which all doesn’t feel good. Over the years I haven’t gotten comfortable with where I was whether it was my job, place to live, etc. because the moment I became comfortable here comes God shaking stuff up. Transition is always continual in life as we go from Glory to Glory. But what happens when you find yourself in a compromising state where you are in one place but your heart is somewhere else.You love where you are to some degree, but yet your unsettled, you haven’t found at one point you thought was “There”. You are still unfilled in the purpose of God for your life. When what’s in you has grown outside of where you are. It leaves you in an uneasy position or feeling like ok God what do I do now, do I leave or do I stay, but where shall I go. It’s like when you’re in a torn relationship. You know the time has come to end it, but instead of letting go you hang on. You become comfortable and settle. You become distant, on edge, irritable and you have no peace. You care about them, you even love them, but you’re not in love with them. Then there’s someone else who has peaked your interest. When you see them you get these butterflies in your stomach. There is this peace you feel when your around them. Your compatible in every way. Everything flows as if a perfect fit when sticking your hand into a glove that is the right size, your hands feel warm, secure and protected. Your desire to be with them becomes stronger the more you are around them or communicating with them. You get that gut feeling and the sense of yeah!this is the one, this is where I belong. Even in that you still have to use caution because everything that “feels” right doesn’t mean it is right. In all things we still have to consult the council of the most high God. In spite of what we feel we don’t want to make a hasty decision without the direction of God. It’s all in God’s timing and we must trust Him still. #CLEANTHISHOUSE

Let It Go

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A heart that forgives by Kevin Levar

Let Go by Dewayne Woods

I dropped the girls off at school and went back to the apartment to clean up. At the time I was by myself and not really focusing on anything but cleaning up. Moving everything to the front of the apartment.One side was with things I was taking to our new home and the other side was things I wasn’t taking with me at all. I have always been taught to grieve but don’t grieve long. I have always agreed with that method until now. I have found out that if you don’t properly grieve or go through the process it will come up again. I am now having to deal with a lot that I thought I had dealt with over the years, but realizing I had only buried them. At the moment I wasn’t ready to deal with it, so I stayed focused on the task at hand which was to “CLEAN THIS HOUSE” Later I found myself saying I’m just ready for this to be over not realizing at the time that this was part of the process that I have to go through in order to fully cross over into the next season whole. I then sat down to eat my lunch and my mom was getting ready to leave and I sat on the floor and felt it coming, but I was still trying to avoid it and hold it in. Then I heard a still small voice say “Let It Go” Tears began to fall down my face. Again I heard “Let It Go” I began to cry like a big baby. The tears I cried were of mixed emotions. Happy, but also sad having to deal with the fact that IT IS OVER.The life that I thought I would  have but it died.
1. My Pastor died
2. My family church was no more
3. Divorced
4. Leaving what I considered home and where we raised our children

Moving forward doesn’t mean I would forget, but God was closing a chapter in my life. I had to deal with it and embrace it to fully walk into my new season God had for me and my family.#CLEANTHISHOUSE

Unnecessary Clutter

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I Will Run by Freddy Rodriguez
Take Me To The King by Tamela Mann
As I was cleaning out my apartment just when I thought that I was done I would come across more stuff. At this point I want to throw it all away because I don’t want to go through the process of cleaning it out. I realized that each item is connected to a memory and not everything needs to be thrown away. There is still value that lies in the midst of the clutter. The things that accumulate over the years. Had I done the necessary cleaning through out the years it wouldn’t be so much to go through, throw away or deal with. In life we tend to clutter our minds and our hearts with unneccasary stuff which over a period of time will become cluttered. We are then unable to think clearly, our hearing becomes off and our vision becomes blurred.  The battle begans in the mind which gives the signal to the rest of our body. Whatever you feed the most is what will grow.#CLEANTHISHOUSE