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It happened, NOW WHAT?

A lot of times we become stuck at the experience, unable to move forward because we can’t see past what has happened.
We continue to play and rehearse the scenes over and over again in our head. With the same questions: why did this happen, why did this happen to me, etc. Unable to heal because we continue to open up the wounds.


  1. It happened
  2. It was painful, it hurt
  3. It was life changing
  4. It wasn’t fair
  5. I didn’t deserve it

At some point we have to pull the needle off of the broken record. We have to stop playing the movie of our favorite scene or maybe the worse scene in our life. At some point we have to pull our own selves out of the tar.

It has happened, NOW WHAT?

I realized there was a decision I had to make. And that was to either to LIVE or DIE. I wasn’t physically dieing, but slowly of a spiritual death. Walking, but dead on the inside. No hope or desire to go on. Breathing, but not functiong. I was a dead man walking.

Proverbs 29:18

Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keepeth the law, happy is he

What kind of vision do I have for myself?

TRUTH is I had to come to terms with it.

  1. I had to look at the man in the mirror
  2. Examine myself
  3. Where did I go wrong
  4. OWN IT

Don’t get me wrong, I know that there are somethings that have happened to us that stole our innocence as a child. There were somethings that happened to us that was beyond our control.  But at what point do we stop allowing it to have control over our life.

You will never be able heal from the things you refuse to confront

Hebrews 11:1

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

It wasn’t until I could look beyond what I could see in the natural, that I was able to move forward.


  1. Finding out who I am through Christ Jesus
  2. Believing in who He has created me to be
  3. Learning to Love me
  4. Putting me first

Through everything I have experienced there was something that I had to learn and I take them with me through life’s journey.


  1. Allow yourself time to heal
  2. Take it step by step
  3. Trust God’s leading
  4. Keep Moving Forward

It isn’t what happens to us that keeps us from moving forward, but how we respond to the things that have happened.

Take your negative situations and turn them around for your good.

Philippians 3:12-14

Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me.  Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead,  I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Give Thanks



Give thanks with a grateful heart

Give thanks to the Holy One

Give thanks because He’s given Jesus Christ, His Son

And now let the weak say, “I am strong”

Let the poor say, “I am rich

Because of what the Lord has done for us”

Give thanks 

Saved By Grace



I AM delivered from sin
Romans 6:6-7

“Knowing this, that our old man is crucified with him, that the body of sin might be destroyed, that henceforth we should not serve sin. For he that is dead is freed from sin”

It doesn’t mean that I am perfect, that I never make a mistake or that I may never fall, but because I am now in Christ it is that I put away my old sinful nature. I don’t continue in sin. Every day I am striving to live in the image of Christ and even when I do fall, make a mistake or don’t hit the mark I don’t stay there and return back to the old man, my old nature, my old habits and my old ways. I get back up and try again not to return to where I had fallen. Once you are in Christ sin becomes a choice and the word of God is not an excuse for you to continue in sin. Whatever you feed the most is what will grow. When your spirit man is strong even in a weak moment it will over ride your flesh to want to sin. THANK YOU JESUS! If your flesh is in control strengthen the inner man (your spirit).


Don’t Jump

She was standing at the edge of the cliff trying to tell herself why she had no reason to live but something said,
She said to herself, will anyone really miss me, will they even notice that I am gone? She heard that voice again,
She started to step back away from the cliff and she turned around to see if anyone was there but she saw no one.She turned back around and started back towards the cliff.
She then began to wonder how far down would she have to fall before she died and as she started to step off the cliff ìt was as if something grabbed her and pulled her away, but when she opened her eyes she saw no one. Scratching her head as if to be puzzled she realized it was God telling her to LIVE.
Though I wasn’t physically at the cliff, ìt was as if I had been there for real but the Lord saved me just in time.
I was saved, sanctified and filled with the Holy Ghost, married with kids, but still felt like my life wasn’t worth living.
How do we get so down in life that we feel like dying would be the easiest way out.
We allow the pressures of life, people and our own self images of ourselves play over and over again in our heads. That moment seems to last forever.
That was years ago, but I made the decision to LIVE instead of die.
It hasn’t been easy,but I take it one day at a time and I trust God and his leading.
When I changed my way of thinking it changed my perspective, so no matter what I went through or had to endure I knew God would be with me through it all.
When I think about how God gave his only begotten Son that I could live and to know that I could live in peace and walk in freedom and total victory makes my life worth living.
Because He lives I can face tomorrow
Because He live all fear is gone
Because I know, I know, I know who holds my future
And life is worth the living just because He lives

The Way You Love Me

Love by Musiq Soulchild

I have never been a materialist person, don’t get me wrong I love to be showered with gifts, to be sent flowers just because or to get an unexpected surprise when someone will just show up even for a moment to see you smile. I realized something greater than any materialist gift that anyone can give is the gift of love. The moment someone has opened up their heart to not only love you, but to be loved. You shouldn’t have to wait one day a year for someone to “show” you that they love you if so you may need to revisit why they are with you or better yet why are you with them. Holidays or special occasions should only enhance what they have done for you all year. Anyone can give you things and still not give you their heart. You should be able to look in their eyes and see that they care deeply for you, the way they look at you with such compassion and when they smile it brings warmth to your heart. They talk to you with such respect, they are detailed when it comes to caring for you. It’s not just what they say to you but how they say it or even in their silence you can hear their heart beat. When someone can give you their heart they have given you the greatest gift in the world because they are given you all of them. When they give you them they will move heaven and earth just to please you. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 “Love is patient love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it’s not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always preservers. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they be stilled; where there is knowledge it will pass away.” Jesus could have called thousands of Angels to come and rescue him at any given point but because His unconditional love for us he suffered, hung on the cross, bleed and died and rose again just to save us. What greater love is this that a man would lay down his life for a friend. True love comes with no strings attached, with no conditions, but to give of themselves unconditionally. You may say well how will I know? Oh! You will know the moment they give you their heart, it will show in the way that they love you. #CLEANTHISHOUSE

Something In Me Refused To Die

I Shall Live by Jason Nelson

I had finished cleaning up the apartment for the most part, my car was getting detailed and everyone else was gone. So as I was sitting there waiting I realized I had awhile yet before my car was going to be ready and I no longer wanted to sit here. I had emotionally and mentally dealt with everything so being in the apartment no longer held the same substance. What once was a place full of life was now empty. So I went to see if my neighbor would take me up the street so that I could get something to eat. She gave me the keys to her car and said I could use it as long as I needed to. Reluctantly I said ok, inside I was scared to get in it. She was a sweet older lady that would do anything for anybody if she could and it was nice of her to offer me her car, but I thought about how small her car was compared to mine. I already started feeling smothered and I hadn’t even got in the car yet. I have very long legs, inside her car looked cluttered and the thought of having to drive something other than mine. I got in the car and tried to adjust myself, but no matter how much I adjusted myself the more uncomfortable I felt. It is just like us how we continue to live in situations and circumstances that we know we have out grown to the point that we have become uncomfortable. God gives us the necessary  tools to get out, to overcome, but yet we stay in bondage, in a tight place, a ucomfortable place when God has called us out. It’s just like the elephant who was chained with a ball at his leg and even when he was set free he still would only go as far as the chain would allow him to go. Though physically he had been set free mentally he was still bound to the chains. There had to be a renewing of the mind. When I was going through what I called my wilderness experience I had a choice which was to LIVE or DIE. When I made the choice to LIVE and not just exist that meant I had to change and it all began with the way I was thinking.  “And be not conformed to this world but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind” Romans 12:2 When my way of thinking changed, it changed my thought process,  which then changed my whole life.#CLEANTHISHOUSE