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The Power Of Letting Go

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“Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me” Pslam 51:10-12

The things that we release will have to be replaced.

The question is what are we replacing them with? A negative plus a positive is still a negative. Releasing a bad habit to pick up another one only creates more. Releasing something toxic but to only replace it with more toxicity will leave you with more damage. The more we can eliminate the negatives in our life and replace them with positive ones will put us on a path to wholeness.

In my own life because I didn’t know who I was and whose I was in an effort to fill those voids I did so with the wrong things and the wrong people which caused me to normalize my dysfunction.

The older I become the more I have tried to create a place of peace. Anything that disturbs that place of peace can create a toxic environment. Making sure that I pay attention to those trigger points and red flags. That discernment or gut feelings is real. I also realize that there are things within me that may have caused me to be toxic to other people.

“Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in good health, even a thy soul prospereth” 3 John 2

When hearing this scripture I have mostly heard it being referenced to prospering in materialistic things or acquiring materialistic gain. God wants us to be whole in every aspect of our life and to learn how to have balance so that we are able to maintain it. Our character, our business, at work, in our resources, our health and our relationships. Growing up I was taught to focus on the spiritual aspects of my life which caused me to be religious in my thinking, judgmental and unbalanced.

In the midst of this pandemic God has me in a place of restoration, healing and is setting me free from things that has held me in bondage due to unresolved trauma, normalized behaviors that created unhealthy habits, unhealthy behaviors and life styles. I have asked God to reveal the sources and now I am doing the necessary work to become a better version of myself. We can not truly prosper if we are physically, emotionally, and mentally sick.

It takes more energy to hang on than to let go of the things that are doing more harm to us

Sometimes in our effort to move on if we don’t take the time to heal from what has happened it can cause further damage. In order for us to start to properly heal we must:

1. Assess the damage that has been done. Not acknowledging or avoiding what has happened will cause you to internalize your pain. Be honest how you are feeling.

2. Deal with what has happened. Allow yourself the time to properly grieve. Find away to allow yourself to be vulnerable and release what you are feeling in a healthy way.

3. Resolve any unresolved issues within ourselves. Take a moment to self reflect. Take ownership of anything that you may have done. Make sure to not only forgive others but to forgive yourself as well. Get rid of any anger, resentment or bitterness that may hold you back from moving forward.

” Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice” Ephesians 4:31

I can not do this in my own strength. I have to allow God to create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within. I have to continue to lay down my life daily so he can complete the work in me. With out God’s help it will be a losing battle.

There is a false perception that God will do it all. It is true that God can do anything but he won’t do them without our participation. It is going to take more than just our shout and our prayers. Our unwillingness to do what is necessary to change, heal FOR REAL and evolve will keep us in bondage. “Faith without works is dead” James 2:26

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The Need To Produce

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“For as the earth bringeth forth her bud, and as the garden causeth the things that are sown in it to spring forth; so the Lord God will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all nations”

Isaiah 61:11

I was outside looking at some of my flower trees within my garden and I could start to see little green buds on some of them and some of them you couldn’t see anything. I noticed that the ones that didn’t have any new buds on them had dead flower pulps at the end of their limbs.

Yesterday, I was outside in my garden and my neighbor came over and said, “You have to take these dead parts off, as it is still trying to send energy to a dead source.” As I was outside today, it hit me like a ton of bricks and I started removing all the dead pieces off the ones that weren’t producing new buds.

“Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,”

Hebrews 12:1

Have you ever felt a heaviness on you? Not a heaviness that comes from someone who we knew has passed or even the fear and doubt that we sometimes may feel. But like a weight that has come from other people or things that have been physically gone, yet the are spiritually still connected. They could still be in your life and they are nothing but a dead weight that continues to hold you back from producing the things in which God has called you too.

Maybe your lack of being able to produce is because you keep sending your energy to a dead source. It isn’t producing life, but continues to weigh you down, drain your energy, slow down your progress, causing you to go numb, making you feel lifeless because you are dying on the inside.

It is up to us to let go of those people or things that are no longer producing fruit in our life. Letting go of those things, whether bad thoughts, wrong desires, bad habits that continue to add poison and toxins to our bodies. We have to be willing to release the negative energy and cultivate a positive space so that we attract positive energy back into our lives.

“Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth shall ye not know it. I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert”

Isaiah 43:9

My prayer for you today, is that during this time of quarantine you would have the courage to cut off and cut out those dead parts in your life. And as God begins to heal those places, that you would be able to experience the newness of life and fully be able to produce the very things that have been lying dormant within you. And as those dormant places begin to come to life, that they will produce a harvest in its season.

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Just For Me by Kirk Franklin https://youtu.be/TD3zS_GxS3M

Lyrics

Just for me
Many doors you’ve closed
Just for me
Sometimes you will say no
So I’ll be
Tested in your fire
To purify my desires
So my blessings won’t be
Just for me
So caught up in myself
I couldn’t see
The world did not revolve around me
So storms are in your will
So I can feel what others feel their needs, if I could speak honestly

It don’t feel good
But growing never does
It don’t seem fair
For you to call this love
But if necessary pain
Is the ingredient for change

Even when life may be bittersweet
It’s working

Just for me
All the moments I missed
That were just for me
Because I chose not to
Wait patiently
Before every mistake
Was the same amount of grace
That kept my blessing waiting


Just for me
But trust in your timing is not easy
And what I want’s not always what I need, Somewhere I forgot
You are God and I am not
I see, if I could speak honestly, It don’t feel good
But growing never does
It don’t seem fair
For you to call this love, But if necessary pain
Is the ingredient for change
Even when life may be bittersweet 

The Blood Still Works

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It has been almost a month ago that I had to have a colonoscopy. I was having blood in my stool along with some other issues. Last year I was the woman with the issue of blood literally. They couldn’t find out what was wrong with me. I only told a few people who I knew would be praying for and with me. Even though physically at times I didn’t have much strength it never stopped me from doing what God called me to do and if I couldn’t do anything else my praise is always 100 plus. Half way into last year I could feel God getting ready to put me on a consecration. I couldn’t even begin to explain where he had me. It was a place of unusual peace. The more I began to draw closer to him and follow his instructions the more of it I felt. He was doing so many things and fast. The first 3 months of this year God had me shut down social media and focus on other ministry needs. I was in a place of surrender. I will save you the details of the process of my procedure, but put it this way I pray you never have to have one. The morning of I was at peace. I am grateful to my friend Alaysia Black Hackett for being there with me. I think she was more nervous than I was. Anyway, right before they were getting ready to put me to sleep the doctor came in and said so are we checking for cancer today? That wasn’t anything my doctor had discussed, but I wasn’t alarmed, I was still at peace. I explained my issue and before I knew it I  was waking up. The end result is that THE BLOOD STILL WORKS. This is the 4th encounter that I can pinpoint that I know something was wrong with me , BUT God TOTALLY healed me. I shared that to say this….this Christian walk is real. It sad to see people within a year and nothing has changed and even sadder in 10 years. I am not being judgemental, but making an observation. There is NO WAY you can have a TRUE encounter with Jesus Christ and remain the same especially those of us who claim to be the called of Christ. That doesn’t mean you want fall or make a mistake, but there should be a difference in every area of your life. Your life should be the evidence that God is real, not just by the words that you speak. We go from glory to glory and from faith to faith. It is getting late in the evening and time is winding up. Tomorrow isn’t promised to any of us. IT’S TIME TO GET YOUR HOUSE IN ORDER. Don’t let it be said to late.

Pressing My Way Wednesday

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John 10:10

“The theif cometh not, but for to steal, kill and destroy; I came that they might have life, and may have it abundantly”

When you look at the anatomy of an egg it has 8 layers.  The outer layer which is it’s shell protects you from getting to the inside of it.  In order to get to the inside you would have to literally break it open.  Though it’s outer shell can become cracked it can still stay in tack due to the layers that is underneath it’s shell. Even if the egg becomes broken it can still be used.  When an egg is boiled it increases the strength in the layers of the egg and makes it even harder for you to get into.  Even if you crack the egg you still have to peel back it’s shell and break into it’s other layers before you could ever get to the center of the egg.  The enemies job is to keep what’s on the inside of you from growing and being produced. In order for him to even destroy what’s on the inside of you he would have to breakthrough the many layers of you which is your mind, your heart and break your spirit. He knows if you ever produce what is on the inside of you his kingdom would be destroyed.  The more that you strengthen your inner man it becomes harder for him to break through in your life. A long this journey you may become cracked, but  it is from the cracks in life that we draw strength and builds up our resistance.  In time all wounds heal.  Though they may leave a scar it is an outward testimony that you survived and have overcome a fall.  The thing about the fall is that you may have become cracked, but your not easily broken.

When Your In One Place But Your Heart Is Some Where Else

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My Life, My Love, My All by Kirk Franklin

Where your treasure is therefore your heart is also Matt 6:21
For sometime now I feel like I have been in this struggle of where I belong since the closing of my former church home. I have been in this place of searching or more like transition for what I felt was “home” For 37 years of my life I was in 1 place. Never went from church to church, because I was always taught to be committed where you are. Then God decided to disrupt my life in every way manageable with what felt like a stripping away, cutting back, pruning or surgery which all doesn’t feel good. Over the years I haven’t gotten comfortable with where I was whether it was my job, place to live, etc. because the moment I became comfortable here comes God shaking stuff up. Transition is always continual in life as we go from Glory to Glory. But what happens when you find yourself in a compromising state where you are in one place but your heart is somewhere else.You love where you are to some degree, but yet your unsettled, you haven’t found at one point you thought was “There”. You are still unfilled in the purpose of God for your life. When what’s in you has grown outside of where you are. It leaves you in an uneasy position or feeling like ok God what do I do now, do I leave or do I stay, but where shall I go. It’s like when you’re in a torn relationship. You know the time has come to end it, but instead of letting go you hang on. You become comfortable and settle. You become distant, on edge, irritable and you have no peace. You care about them, you even love them, but you’re not in love with them. Then there’s someone else who has peaked your interest. When you see them you get these butterflies in your stomach. There is this peace you feel when your around them. Your compatible in every way. Everything flows as if a perfect fit when sticking your hand into a glove that is the right size, your hands feel warm, secure and protected. Your desire to be with them becomes stronger the more you are around them or communicating with them. You get that gut feeling and the sense of yeah!this is the one, this is where I belong. Even in that you still have to use caution because everything that “feels” right doesn’t mean it is right. In all things we still have to consult the council of the most high God. In spite of what we feel we don’t want to make a hasty decision without the direction of God. It’s all in God’s timing and we must trust Him still. #CLEANTHISHOUSE

Let It Go

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A heart that forgives by Kevin Levar

Let Go by Dewayne Woods

I dropped the girls off at school and went back to the apartment to clean up. At the time I was by myself and not really focusing on anything but cleaning up. Moving everything to the front of the apartment.One side was with things I was taking to our new home and the other side was things I wasn’t taking with me at all. I have always been taught to grieve but don’t grieve long. I have always agreed with that method until now. I have found out that if you don’t properly grieve or go through the process it will come up again. I am now having to deal with a lot that I thought I had dealt with over the years, but realizing I had only buried them. At the moment I wasn’t ready to deal with it, so I stayed focused on the task at hand which was to “CLEAN THIS HOUSE” Later I found myself saying I’m just ready for this to be over not realizing at the time that this was part of the process that I have to go through in order to fully cross over into the next season whole. I then sat down to eat my lunch and my mom was getting ready to leave and I sat on the floor and felt it coming, but I was still trying to avoid it and hold it in. Then I heard a still small voice say “Let It Go” Tears began to fall down my face. Again I heard “Let It Go” I began to cry like a big baby. The tears I cried were of mixed emotions. Happy, but also sad having to deal with the fact that IT IS OVER.The life that I thought I would  have but it died.
1. My Pastor died
2. My family church was no more
3. Divorced
4. Leaving what I considered home and where we raised our children

Moving forward doesn’t mean I would forget, but God was closing a chapter in my life. I had to deal with it and embrace it to fully walk into my new season God had for me and my family.#CLEANTHISHOUSE

The Oven Cleaner

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You Have My Heart by Farris Long

Nobody Greater by Vashawn Mitchell

I was starting to clean out the oven in the apartment and Wow what a challenge this is going to be. I have never had to clean out an oven before, thank God for that, so I’m clueless.  My mother told me exactly what to do. So I started spraying the oven immediately. It immediately foamed up and dirt began to surface, but the fumes OMG! So as I let it set I began to clean up else where. When I came back to it was filthy and had picked up so much stuff. I kept rinsing the rag repeatedly until the water was clear, but to my surprise there was still a lot left in the oven because I had only scratched the surface of what remained. So in order for me to get rid of what was left I was going to have to continually repeat the process so it would be completely clean to where there is almost no evidence or trace of it being used. Most of us have only scratched the surface of what had happened in our life. Though we came out of the fire, we made it through the storm and rain we are now only surviving because that’s what we have been taught. We didn’t deal with the damaged it caused or the residue it left behind. So when the next storms come we go into survival mode, but what it left begins to pile up and now we are trying to recover from all. Had we only done the proper maintenance after each storm.  #CLEANTHISHOUSE