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The Closed Door

It so easy to thank and praise God for the open doors. As we consider those doors favor or an opportunity that we know only he could have done.


What about the doors that God  chooses to close?

When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.

Aleander Graham Bell


We confess it with out our mouth, but do we really and truely believe that? If we sincerely believed that, why is to so hard to move forward?

Sometimes we can’t even see the opened door because we are so focused on the door that has closed. Normally it happens suddenly, out of no where and in most cases at the time that it can’t be explained.  When we become emotionally attached, phsycially bond, spiritually connected to certain things and or people when that season has ended it is hard to close that door because we are still attached.

Times will pass and seasons will come and go

Roy Bean

Reason for closed doors:

  • Season Ends
  • God has something better
  • We won’t do it
  • We opened the wrong door
  • Not recognizing the reason for the opened door (misused the purpose)
  • Protection

Through life experiences I have realized that their were a lot of doors that needed to be closed, because it would have caused destruction in my life. There were some doors I should have left closed and because I failed to listen to God it wreaked havoc in my life. Some doors are also seasonal, but because of our attachment to the season we miss it or in most cases ignore the signs that the seasons have passed. Some doors God has to physically close for us because we won’t do it.  Those are normally the ones that close in what seems unexpectedly.

When you know the signifigance of a closed door, you wouldn’t be so distraught over the ones that do. protection + purpose = better

It makes me appreciate the open doors, but I have even more appreciation for the closed ones. It is in those that I know God is looking out for me. As painful as it can sometimes be, it was a blessing in disguise. What turns out to initally look like a bad thing, actually turned out to be good one.

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose”

Romans 8:28

“For I am persuaded” Romans 8

I am so grateful for all of the open doors and continued doors that he allows in my life. Favor and opportunities that had he not granted them to me I would have not made it this far.  I would diffently not be where I am today.  But, when I begin to think about all the doors God closed on my behalf I get happy.  Just think about all the doors that have been closed on your behalf that you know nothing about. I am thankful for his grace, but I am also grateful for his mercy.


“For Every Mountain” Amber Bullock

The Blood Still Works


It has been almost a month ago that I had to have a colonoscopy. I was having blood in my stool along with some other issues. Last year I was the woman with the issue of blood literally. They couldn’t find out what was wrong with me. I only told a few people who I knew would be praying for and with me. Even though physically at times I didn’t have much strength it never stopped me from doing what God called me to do and if I couldn’t do anything else my praise is always 100 plus. Half way into last year I could feel God getting ready to put me on a consecration. I couldn’t even begin to explain where he had me. It was a place of unusual peace. The more I began to draw closer to him and follow his instructions the more of it I felt. He was doing so many things and fast. The first 3 months of this year God had me shut down social media and focus on other ministry needs. I was in a place of surrender. I will save you the details of the process of my procedure, but put it this way I pray you never have to have one. The morning of I was at peace. I am grateful to my friend Alaysia Black Hackett for being there with me. I think she was more nervous than I was. Anyway, right before they were getting ready to put me to sleep the doctor came in and said so are we checking for cancer today? That wasn’t anything my doctor had discussed, but I wasn’t alarmed, I was still at peace. I explained my issue and before I knew it I  was waking up. The end result is that THE BLOOD STILL WORKS. This is the 4th encounter that I can pinpoint that I know something was wrong with me , BUT God TOTALLY healed me. I shared that to say this….this Christian walk is real. It sad to see people within a year and nothing has changed and even sadder in 10 years. I am not being judgemental, but making an observation. There is NO WAY you can have a TRUE encounter with Jesus Christ and remain the same especially those of us who claim to be the called of Christ. That doesn’t mean you want fall or make a mistake, but there should be a difference in every area of your life. Your life should be the evidence that God is real, not just by the words that you speak. We go from glory to glory and from faith to faith. It is getting late in the evening and time is winding up. Tomorrow isn’t promised to any of us. IT’S TIME TO GET YOUR HOUSE IN ORDER. Don’t let it be said to late.

Turn Around Tuesday


Galatians 6:7
“Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap”

2 years ago I had moved into my new home and I was given 12  Rose of Sharon to plant. I have never been much of a gardener, but I was now having to learn how. Being new at this I wasn’t really sure of what I was doing or how to even care for a plant let alone a garden. So I took the  instructions and the advice that I was given from others and decided to give it a try. I have found it to be very rewarding, fulling, and therapeutic even while  “In The Garden” as there has been so much that I have learned. It was a critical time in this season as spring was fastly approaching it’s end and waiting to see if they would even survive through the winter praying I would do right by them. When planting it has a lot to do with how you plant and where you plant them. Are they planted in good ground, planted in the right area, is it the right type of soil or environment for them?  Is there enough or too much sunlight, ext. These Rose of Sharon were partially grown with roots already so they were transitioning to a different location into a new source. I continued to follow the instructions that I was given which was to water them every other day unless we received a lot of rain and even if I didn’t see any evidence of life to not give up on them just yet. I continued this process until it was too cold for me to do so and I just prayed that they would survive through the winter season. Around spring as I was going around to check on them I noticed there were leaves growing on them, signs of new life. I was surprised that even though I planted all 12 of them at the same time that none of them looked the same in height nor in color. You can plant several of the same things  and they still not produce at the same time and what it produces can be different in size even when it’s of the same kind, but it doesn’t  cause it to loose it’s value in what it will produce. To everything there is direct timing and season. I was excited as one of them that I planted on the side of the house which was also the biggest of them all had started producing buds where I could even see the color that it would bloom. It made me wonder about the other one’s as some seemed to be slower than others. A couple of them I had accidentally cut while I was cutting my grass and I was devistated. They were having to some what start over and not knowing if they would even flourish again. Something in me said to keep watering them because they were only cut from the surface and the roots were still planted firmly in the ground. Just because you don’t see any evidence of life on the surface doesn’t mean that their isn’t anything growing under the ground. Some of the greatest things are produced in a dark place. Give it sometime to be produced. Eventually I began to see life again. Every seed sown will produce a harvest in it’s due season. It never produces what has been planted in the ground, but it increases in size. Good or bad you will reap a harvest of whatever seed has been sown. If you don’t want to see anything produced in the future be careful of the seeds that you plant into the ground.

Its Never To Late

It was at the age of 21 that I found out I was pregnant. It was in my life at that time that had God come back I was probably catching the 1st plan ticket to Hell. My life was sooooo jacked up as I was struggling with low self-esteem, trying to fit in, find my identity, looking for love IN ALL the wrong places. So much had happened at that time in my life the last thing I needed to do was get pregnant. The 2 things I thought were my daddy gon kill me, what church folk gon say, my daddy gon kill me. Regardless of the matter all I knew is that I was going to have this baby and I’m so glad that I did. I have always told her I felt like God gave me an Angel when He gave me her and that he sent her to save my life. I was at the point, on the very edge of letting go. She has been my rock through out the years and Lord knows I couldn’t have made it without her. And look at her now. “ALL things work together for the good of them that love God and are called according to His purpose” Looking back I loved God, but I wasn’t in love with him. I didn’t have a true relationship and I didn’t know who I was because I didn’t know Him. Now that I am truly in love with Jesus Christ, I have a deep relationship with Him and because of that I know who I am. My desire to love and please Him has become greater than my desire to please my flesh, to have sex outside marriage and wait for my Boaz. Stop believing the lie that it is too late. Holiness is still right and you can live Holy. God can purify you, sanctify you and make you whole again. No it isn’t easy, take it from one who has been married and is now single, but it’s a choice and a life style. I’m determined to live the life I preach and teach about. Don’t always make the mark, but I don’t stay there I get back up and try again. The cleaning starts on the inside out not the outside in. #CLEANTHISHOUSE

Let It Go

A heart that forgives by Kevin Levar

Let Go by Dewayne Woods

I dropped the girls off at school and went back to the apartment to clean up. At the time I was by myself and not really focusing on anything but cleaning up. Moving everything to the front of the apartment.One side was with things I was taking to our new home and the other side was things I wasn’t taking with me at all. I have always been taught to grieve but don’t grieve long. I have always agreed with that method until now. I have found out that if you don’t properly grieve or go through the process it will come up again. I am now having to deal with a lot that I thought I had dealt with over the years, but realizing I had only buried them. At the moment I wasn’t ready to deal with it, so I stayed focused on the task at hand which was to “CLEAN THIS HOUSE” Later I found myself saying I’m just ready for this to be over not realizing at the time that this was part of the process that I have to go through in order to fully cross over into the next season whole. I then sat down to eat my lunch and my mom was getting ready to leave and I sat on the floor and felt it coming, but I was still trying to avoid it and hold it in. Then I heard a still small voice say “Let It Go” Tears began to fall down my face. Again I heard “Let It Go” I began to cry like a big baby. The tears I cried were of mixed emotions. Happy, but also sad having to deal with the fact that IT IS OVER.The life that I thought I would  have but it died.
1. My Pastor died
2. My family church was no more
3. Divorced
4. Leaving what I considered home and where we raised our children

Moving forward doesn’t mean I would forget, but God was closing a chapter in my life. I had to deal with it and embrace it to fully walk into my new season God had for me and my family.#CLEANTHISHOUSE