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Change Is Necessary And IT Begins With Me

I was reflecting back to when I was working in Home Care as an Administrator about 5 years ago and thanking God for where he has brought me from. Although I know that I have a lot more growing to do what a difference a couple of years can make.  You never realize how far you’ve come until you look back. That was a time in my life  I hated change so much that it would literally make me cringe. I had what you would probably call “a tunnel vision” There was only one way which was mine and I was comfortable with where I was. If it didn’t make sense to me or if I didn’t feel it in my spirit I wasn’t ok with changing and didn’t really care who knew it. Even though I was good at what I did because I was so blinded by the truth of what was really going on inside of me I was not only hurting others around me, but I was slowly over all killing me. “A Mess”  Though not everyone saw me in that light and even when I tell others of my experiences they doubt my stories because of who they know me to be now. I started not to like the person that I was becoming and began to do some soul searching. As the Lord dealt with me I realized that up until that point I had gone through so many changes and transitions in my life I began to resist any type of change. Overtime I began to build up walls of anger that became resentment, that turned into bitterness and unforgiveness. Most of the things that I had experienced in my life weren’t all goo

d. Matter of fact they were very painful. In most cases I wasn’t given an option nor much of a way out.  The greatest thing that happened to me though was the moment when I learned the power of forgiveness. As the Lord began to change the process of my thoughts than my perspective began to change.  It changed my life forever.  Then as I began to see the fruits of it, that even when things happen that are beyond my control or they don’t turn out the way that I had planned because my perspective has changed I am able to get through it. I know that whatever God allows to happen in my life is all working together for a greater purpose and for his glory.  God sometimes allows things to happen in our lives because he knows what it will take to get us to make the necessary changes that he needs for us to make and sometimes it’s just to save our lives. Everything that has happened in my life no matter how painful it has been, it pushed me to become better and because I made and continue to make the necessary changes within my life I am able to move forward.  Change is inevitable.  Change your mindset and your posture will follow.