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They say if you don’t stand for something you will fall for anything. More than not we have all fallen for “the anything” more than once or twice in our life.

Do you ever wonder why is it time, after time, after time again we keep falling for the wrong things? Maybe it’s because our fathers never told us who we were when we were children, maybe because of our low self-esteem, maybe somewhere along the way we lost who we were if in fact we even knew who we were in the first place.

No matter how we got there or maybe here, it’s how do we get out,right. Out of this cycle that leaves us heartbroken, busted and disgusted because we gave all of our hard earned money away playing the roll of house. Doing all of the wifely duets, oh wait when again did we become married? Oh that’s right WE DIDN’T.

See I have been down that road before, gave my heart to the wrong one so I just moved on to the next one, but I didn’t learn from the last one. I’ve been married before and that didn’t work. Heartbroken because I thought he was the one. So as a single parent I’m raising these children to the best of my ability. Felt myself becoming a repeated affinder.

WAIT! I looked back to see how far I’ve come and decided going down that same path ain’t worth it. TREVA, GET YOURSELF TOGETHER!

The question was, how do I get out of the cycle of falling for anything?

Getting to know WHO YOU ARE and WHOSE ARE? Allowing God to heal those places that keep you falling into those same cycle. It is a process that we must go through.

For most of my life my identity was wrapped up in other people and other things to the point that I didn’t even recognize who I was. Such a dangerous place when you lay yourself totally in the hands of other people. It wasn’t until I trusted God with all the broken pieces of my life that I became confidient in who I am.
My parents named me Treva Nicole Barnard, but when I accepted Jesus Christ I became the Daughter of the King. Through him I found out I am:

worth it, more than a conquer, the righteousness of God, beautiful, strong, more than an overcomer, smart, intelligent, confidient, gifted, anointed, overcomer, loved, strong, loved beyond measure, head and not the tail, above and not beneath, lender and not the borrower and so much more.

It took me along time to figure it out, but now I know I don’t have to settle anymore. He has his very best in mind for me and when it’s time it will happen. I am in no rush. So I’ll wait….. Isaiah 40:31

Lord I thank you that you have given me the ability to do so many things. That you have gifted and anointed me with the power to create something out of nothing and the strength to lead. My girls in which are the biggest gifts and opportunity you have given me in raising them into mighty woman of God. Thank you for giving me access to favor and continue to open the doors of opportunity and sooo much more. In all that you’ve given me I have picked up the role and the need to be Super Woman, not only because of the things in which I know I poses that I want to share with the world, but the very thing that society has put on us as women because we can and most of the times do it all. The thing I failed to realize is that in all that you have given me and called me to do you never meant for me to do it in my own strength and I was never meant to do it alone. Lord help me to stay humble enough in knowing that I will ALWAYS need you and that I would never be ashamed or prideful to accept or ask for help. That I don’t become self sufficient to the point that I become self inflicting and I become damaged by my own walls. Thank you for sending on the help I need to carry out your plan for my life. Help me to appreciate what and who you send. Help me not to be selfish, but with a grateful heart even though it may not be what I want or desire, but help me to see what I need. I release the cape of the Super Woman mentality that not only society has placed on us, but in my own need of wanting to help others or is it really the feeling of being needed. Eventhough I know that I can, I was never created to do it all on my own or alone. Load realeased.